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Hello again…here come the chaotic minded girl again. I woke up with a big smile on my face today. It’s about my dream last night…it might sound silly but I kind of like it. At least nice sweet dream is all I got. I dreamt of Adam from AF2…laugh out loud if you wish to.

It was a reunion of my old school or something like that. There were Zahid AF2 and some other friends that I recognize…it’s the last day of the reunion and we were staying at a hotel. The last activity is called the “fortune cookies”…I took one of it. Its kind of a fun activity…some says what is written in the cookies is actually real and based on our real life! In my cookie, there’s a note written…” If you admire a guy in silence, this is the best moment for you to ask him for a drink”…without hesitate, this guy face suddenly popped up in my mind. I look around, my friends were getting ready to leave the hotel and head back home. Some of them have tears in their eyes, some of them were hugging and some guys were doing the hip hop style of goodbye.

I look around but I can’t find the face that’s in my mind…I ask a few friends and they told me that he’s already in the hotel getting ready to checked out from the hotel. My heart started to stumble around. Thinking I’ll never have the chance to have a drink with him. If I failed, my heart will breaks into uncountable pieces and I refuse to feel that. I walked to his room and knocked a few times. Then he appears at the door. My heart was like has been struck by lightning!

“Are you about to leave?” I asked.

“Yep, just to pack up a few more stuff and I’ll be out…why?” he replied. I enjoy every single word that came out from his mouth. His eyes were like no others and his smile were better than Brad Pitt or Tom Cruise.

“No, nothing…I’m just thinking maybe you want to have a drink before you leave?” my heart beating even faster! I felt nervous waiting for his answer.

“Urm…maybe some other time. I’m really in kind of hurry. So sorry, nae.”

Then I can hear my own heart cracked into pieces. I still try to put some smiley face, trying to be nice. I was thinking, some other time? When could that be? Will we be seeing each other after this particular moment? Will he remember me even after we head back to our own life?

“No its okay, I could possibly understand…but just curious when will it be the next time?” I asked with tears starting to fill my eyes.

“Don’t worry, we’ll keep in touch…” he replied.

“Okay then…have a nice journey”

“Thanks…take care…bye”

“Okay, bye Adam…” but my heart refuses to say goodbye.

I walked to the hotel cafeteria and have some drink before I went back to the hotel to pack up my stuff. Then come Zahid and Kaer joining me with the drink. They asked me about my sad face and I just keep it silence. I changed the topic…suddenly Zahid raised his hand and waived to someone. Then I heard a voice at my back.

“May I join you guys?”

“Sure, Adam! Come and sit with us…” Kaer invited him. I was stunned and surprised.

“I thought you were leaving” I tried to say a few words to him.

“Yeah, but on the second thought, why don’t I have a drink before I continue with my boring journey?”

“Adam, you just have to deal with your alter ego…ha ha actually me and Kaer are about to leave. See you guys next time ok?” Zahid suddenly want to leave the table.

I was just smiling in my heart. Once they left, I started the conversation between us.

“So, what your fortune cookies tells you?”

“That’s an interesting question. It says ‘you don’t have to stand taller than you are’ and I still wondering what the hell is that suppose to mean…”

“Whatever it is, I think you know what it means and agree with what it means. If not, you won’t be here sitting and having a drink with me…”

“Wow, that’s complicated…”

I enjoy the next every minute watching his eyes, his smile and listen to his soft voice. I love the way he laughs.

And then suddenly I woke up from my dream because I heard my naughty niece knocking on my door and shouting, ” Ashuuuu (mak su)”…then I said to myself, “I’m gonna kill this girl”…just kidding la! How could I kill my own niece?

It’s a miracle how I can remember every single detail of our conversation. This was one of the best dream I ever had…even though its just a dream but it taste like almost a reality. And that dream beats together with me the whole day. I’m still trying to figure out what does my dream means.

Sometimes I believe in my own dream…of course for good thing only…otherwise, I just let it be a dream…people might think I live in fantasy but the truth is fantasy keep us living. Till then dear blog…I hope a guy that I can love like I love Adam in my dream will appear before its too late. Adios….