Teringin....

kadangkala tu aku teringin sangat nk sambung belajaq...Degree in TESL...sekarang UTM Space pun ada offer course ni...bila cakap UTM Space, please keep in mind on these points:

• tuition fees - sort of expensives
• STRICT on attendance...missed 1 @ 2 class boleh sebabkan ada fail paper tu
• class on weekend SANGAT hectic!! Sabtu 230pm ~ 10 pm, Ahad 830 am ~ 430 pm

in other words, you'll be LIFE-less once u're space stud...being a wife to space's part time stud pun dah ckup rasa LIFE-less, inikan being a stud kan?? ckup la SEKSA hampir 4 tahun ni aku tanggung bila en somi sambung belajar...early stage anak sorang, was OK...then came 2nd one, i almost gone crazy. 

crazy due to BOREDOM...crazy due to TIREDNESS...ye lah, korang nk tahu sabtu aku macammana?? di samping kelas, en somi pegi OT...pagi kuar OT paling lewat 9 am then nnt malam lahh baru balik...so picture me the WHOLE day terperuk di rumah dgn my kids...NO! bukan tk suka duduk rumah dgn anak2...tapi tolong faham kebosanan anak2 terperuk di rumah...bila anak2 mula make a scene as showing their protest due to their boredom, i'm STRESSED. of course for those who just come home expecting people to understand how tired you are and just closed ur eyes to all of these facts are pretty damn easy.

so, if i enroll to space...meaning i'm putting my kids on the same road again for another 4 years...which will be 8 years for harraz. now i asked myself....do i wanna do dat? to my kids? my husband? of course he can handle it...he's been there...i know he's capable of handling the situation...i totally  have no doubt about it ~heh.

by enrolling also, adding 1 more big thing in my routine.

current routine:

send the kids to day care - work 8am - 5 pm - reached home @ 6 or 630 pm - cooks (sometimes) cleans...yada yada y'knaw all the chores for those maid-less people gotta do - sleep

new routine:

+ study before the sleep routine...yes, becoz i'm not really dat kind of person who only study when exam is around the corner & not so depending on frens to do study group

and if i enroll, my husband MUST be home early everyday...no more badminton play, futsal late night yada yada...becoz i show full support on his studies so i expect 100% support back....

TESL was really my passion and i still have it in me...the question is, is it going to be a dream came true or just DAYDREAMING? 

at this point, i can say..................DAYDREAMING!